Diabetes

I'm a Type II Diabetic. I'm mostly in control of things, but sometimes not. I'm also overweight, which is certainly affecting my body's ability to take care of itself - and may well have been the main cause of my contracting the disease.

I don't like to talk about it much, and I try to push it out of my mind usually. It frightens me, and that gets worse if I think about it too much.

I remember when I was diagnosed - the doc explained all the complications, including heart problems, kidney problems, neuropathy... I didn't sleep for 4 days straight. I would wake my wife in the middle of the night and ask her to listen to my chest to see if my heart was still beating. I ended up in the hospital for a couple of days because of the stress - doing all sorts of cardiac tests. Everything came back saying my heart is in fine shape. But I always wonder, still.

Every time my feet tingle, I wonder how long it will be before I'll be facing amputation.


Am I be irrational?

Perhaps.